I feel forgotten, lost at the bottom
Happyness stayed for the weekend, Mondane's left my room's hollow
The writings on my walls maybe scared her away
Cursed incantations known as feelings, seen everyday
Building up body mass seems like a faulty mask when you can't help but throw yourself in a body bag
Full bar reception for this full-on rejection
Learning to pull myself together, still I struggle with disconnection
I've known myself too long to know I love and hate myself
I'm too damn smart to know my smarts are bad for my health
Such wealth holds a consequence, ain't it coincidence hypersensitivity's the reason confidence was never my best acknowledgement
When my brain has a plethora of options just to abolish it
Looking down my history of friends most of their company was misery
Not they fault, they was attracted to my energy
Apples Apples, Friends Enemies
Putting it quite simply: I'm My Favorite Frienemy
So, it shouldn't be that hard to see, being the best friend of me doesn't always feel what's best for me
Painting shades of me, painfully, sometimes aimlessly
Yet my aim's to be more than what I've been chained to be
Not letting these oceans of emotions make a cave of me
The stress of my fears, depression from my tears reminding me those chains are still near
And at this moment all I want to do is adhere
But this pen tip is looking like slit wrists, I think I'll just leave it here
My best friend is calling, and he still needs me here
My Favorite Frienemy by SoL
Performance was STAYonLIT
Lyrics were Composed in SoL
Published via Embold with SoL
Buy a Copy of My Poem on Bandcamp @ https://stayonlit.bandcamp.com/track/my-favorite-frienemy
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