Consumption | Poem

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So many cautions, too many variables, the constant what-ifs & repetition of parables

Of heartbreak, those fixations on what may come about make enjoying you unbearable

Indulgent of consequence, obsessed with curving interactions by a will motivated by over-worrying

Nothing is ever certain; I've seen that a plenty as they call curtains on relationships & friendships that left me hurting

Irking, searching for the next one lurking to see me feel much less safe

Next to you I lay, you’re wrapping of arms around me, hearts' beating at a pace

Yours’s beats with a grace coming from a softer place, mine is running away with all haste, panicked by the thought of disgrace

In chase to that all too familiar face convincing me I've made another mistake

That I'd better run away before all that you taste is a replay of damage to take when I gave you hints but I was too late

It seems so easy to slip on this tricky trip

When I feel like anyone getting too close is out to get me,

Yet this beauty I hold to me is so close to get to me, only because she gets me...and that's scary

She says to me sweetly don't worry

But I can't lie I cannot help but to ask “will I bask in your love or bask in my blood”

Jaded as the poison dart that cupid marked my insides with will you be my potion

Or will you take my insights for granted, adding another shade to the walls of my dark times

Is this real? Is it false? Is it in my head or is it the alarms? I don't know

What is true when my thoughts are clear, in view if I adhere to faith minus the fear, is what you've shown

Up to this point for me to allow you to get this close, making this house our home

So, I will lay my back on hope to lose this rope around my throat & inhale *breathe*

Exhale the anxiety of assumptions that consume all this joy with you that I have

Though I don't fully understand it, I'm taking this chance for every glance of a woman I'm beginning to understand

Only Lord knows the story of my mind, in time I'll know if I'm wrong or right if this side of Heaven is another way to see some light

Someday I'll see - for now...I'll hold your hand, let my smile bloom, & enjoy however long this ride may be

Consumption by SoL

Performance was STAYonLIT

Lyrics were Composed in SoL

Published via Embold with SoL

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