Jealous

You, why are you so angry?

What is this hatred in your eyes that I see burning, consuming thee with the rotting fumes of greed and envy

It's killing me, quite literally to know that the bitter seed didn't fully truly leave you be

To breathe in the arms of love's surrendering serenity

It starts and ends with family, the well-rehearsed broken home tragedy all occupants are the casualties of a fallacy

Raised in a house of three led by the watchful eyes of the trinity

Single mother, oldest daughter and youngest son, both born of two different fathers

Who were absent, that gives axis to the blackness of confusion that leads to inner chaos of the soul, breeding the mindset this house is not a home

I could only see the pain of rejection and hateful misconceptions of two women who share half of my blood but won't hesitate to abuse their right to judge

I've had enough, being the dinner in the middle of a vulture war

So, I run away to find the love I was ignored in the hands of various woman who would tolerate my norm

But just as before, trails of tears follow a broken heart shading perception of life even more

Along with the loss of my first conception of life by a whore

Corpse left burning on the raging flames of a child scorned, a soul further torn and infection of viral spores in my physical form

Fueling my hate galore when I see my friends enjoy the spoils that have never met my door

Jealousy Is Kin To Me, Because Family Is Enemy.

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Lyrics were Composed in SoL

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