View from a Milestone

Imposter syndrome is standing next to me as I have accomplished the first part to a goal I said I was going to finish. It's like it is hard to sit and feel the right to appreciate what you've done, because you look back on how much time was wasted not doing it, and how much more needs to be done. Sitting on this milestone of the mountain of completion of this long overdue journey of acceptance via music, I allowing myself to allow thoughts of "I'm proud of you." "You did a great job." "I'm glad you choose yourself." "Thank you for not picking up the normal vices to cop, and experiencing the unsettling feeling that comes with victory." There is more to do, and still some uncertainty, but I'm certain I'm crazy about this belief in what I always believed was possible for me. Despite the years of sabotaging myself out of fear that it would never be good enough, how much anxiety had me in a closet locked like a big bully, and the words from those closest to me I internalized as truth. I appreciate the view, not exactly how I thought it feel, but I believe it's 'cause I have more to do. And I'm ready for the next goal post. I'm not an imposter, I'm right where I need to be...where I belong.